Love Bombing

I knew it would happen…this is my surprised face. After hours and hours and hours of relentless accusations, he broke me. I just needed it to stop. I pushed down all the bullshit all the accusations, the micromanagement of every move I make, and acted like it was nothing. That may sound counter productive when I’m actively trying to get out of this relationship but there are so many things I still need to get in order.

Hes convinced that our issues are on communication. Which he is grasping at straws here because I have said on more times than I can count, that I am not happy, I’m his verbal vomit bag, the constant nitpicking at every single thing I do is too much. As hes denying it, I’m on the couch adjusting my blanket becuase I had a little breeze from the fan coming threw. No sooner did he say, “I don’t micromanage you..” without missing a beat, he says “What you hiding under there, like what’s going on over there? I nearly lost my ever loving mind. He proved my point in real time.

Now hes watching what he says and how he says it. Until there is a spec of dust..then its “How can you live like this? This place is filthy” I was like, excuse me? What are you talking about? Apparently, when I gave the dogs their vitamins, the tablet left behind a bit of dust. Its the smallest things that will set him off…but he can leave behuind any amount of mess he likes and I’m just supposed to smile and take care of it.

I’ll use this love bomb phase to move a bit more freeley and get some things done that he wont notice. Maybe by the next big blow-out, I’ll my ducks in a row.